Tuesday, June 30, 2009

Prayer request


We are embarking on quite the journey over the next 3 days!! I can't write specifics in case one of the students reads my blog, but.... it is going to be VERY VERY stretching!!

If you could bless us with your prayers, we would greatly appreciate it!! Here are some specifics to pray for:
- safety (physical and emotional)
- wisdom and discernment as we seek God's guidance over the next 3 days
- at least some good rest
- that our eyes, ears, minds, and hearts stay wide open to what God wants us to see, hear, and experience
- our attitudes (that they stay positive and encouraging)
- that we feel God holding us close
- MOST IMPORTANTLY, that God deepens our compassion and breaks our hearts even more for what breaks His heart!!!

Thanks friends!! Can't wait to share with you all this weekend about what God has done over the next 3 days!!

Blessings!!

Sunday, June 28, 2009

I want to go back to prison!!

Did that title spark your interest or what?!?! :)

So... yesterday we had the incredible blessing of going into Sheridan Prison about an hour and a half south of Chicago to share our love for Christ with the men at this facility!!!

OH MY WORD!!!!!!!!!! I HAVE NEVER BEEN A PART OF SOMETHING SOOOOO GOD AND SOOOO POWERFUL!!!!!!!!!!!!

We began the day by getting a little bit of training on the materials we would be using to share the Gospel. Then we started our day! There were two performers, one lady who does mad crazy tricks with basketballs and an NFL player who can do crazy strength tricks and has an incredible story. Both of these individuals were amazing and accomplished the task of getting the men's attention and placing that attention on hearing the Gospel.

That's when God gave us an incredible gift!!!!! Each of us (on our team, staff and students) was able to huddle up with a group of about 10 of the men (inmates) in this prison and share our love and passion for God and His Good News!! WOW!!!!!!!!! That's all I know to say!! They were sooooo hungry for what God was sharing through us!! I don't know if I've ever been in a situation or ever will be again where the people I am blessed to talk with are sooooo hungry for the Message!!! THEY WERE SOOO HUNGRY!!!!!!!

So, God lead through me a group of 10 men in the morning and then we did the entire program again in the afternoon and He led another group of 10 men in the afternoon and let me be a part of it!!!!!

Oh, the stories I was blessed and trusted to hear!!! And how these men just wanted to be heard!! If you're interested in hearing more at some point, ask me about David and Randy, two of the men I had long, deep conversations with that brought tears to my eyes and made my heart ache and rejoice with what they've been through and where God is taking them!!!!!!!

HERE'S THE BEST PART -- GOD ALLOWED ME TO BE A PART OF HIM LEADING 5 MEN TO A PERSONAL RELATIONSHIP WITH HIM YESTERDAY!!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!! I'm sitting at my computer typing this with tears in my eyes and overwhelming joy in my heart that I am going to see these men again in Heaven at our precious Holy Father's throne!!!!!!!!!! PRAISE GOD!!!!!!!!!!

I loved going into the prison yesterday!!!!!!! The Holy Spirit was soooo present, moving, and working through us!!!!!!!! What an overwhelming, unforgettable experience!!!

I was soooo nervous going into that experience yesterday!! A LOT of prayer was covering into that experience!!! And God was soooo faithful!!!!!!!

When asked at the end if I would ever do something like this again, without hesitation, I responded, "I can't wait to do this again!!!!!!!!" And after I said that, I was like, "Did I really just say that?!?!" I DID!!!!! AND I MEANT IT!!!!!!! I can't wait for God to bless me with another experience with His Presence and Power in that environment!

What a challenging, stretching, growing, and encouraging experience!! I told the men I was blessed to converse with them and that I was walking out of that prison sooooo deeply encouraged by each of them!! And they looked at me like I was crazy! But it was true!! I told them that them allowing me to spend time with them, hear their stories, and allow me to share my love for Christ and more importantly Christ's love for each of them - that has to be one of the greatest blessings of my life!!!! And the handshakes and hugs I received at the end of each of group times was amazing - the genuine respect and love established in such a short amount of time!!!!! Crazy!!

What a crazy God we serve!!! Who loves each of us with such a crazy, endless love!!!!!! The more our God deepens my heart and head knowledge with His crazy love and Spirit, the more He fills me with His energy and power to do crazy things to bring Him glory and to share that crazy love with as many people as I can!!!!!!

Amazing day! Amazing God!! Amazing, crazy Love!!!

Much love!!

Friday, June 26, 2009

My heart is heavy...

Yesterday, we found out a 9 year old girl was playing in her front yard and was shot and killed. This happened only a few minutes away from where we're staying.

When I was told this yesterday, I couldn't take a breath for a few seconds. And my heart immediately hurt.

I am so thankful that God is breaking my heart for what breaks His heart. But.... I don't know what to do with the ache. And my heart just wants to comfort that hurting family right now!!

And it deeply saddens and angers me that this type of occurrence is simply commonplace! We get more upset when a celebrity dies, than we do when a 9 year old precious girl gets shot and killed out of nowhere playing in her front yard! One of the few places she should feel safe!! My heart aches at this injustice!!

Please pray for this precious girl, that she knew Christ as her personal Savior before she died. Please pray for her family as they are probably feeling a spectrum of emotions right now. And (selfishly) please pray for my heart, because I am both deeply saddened and angered about this! And I want to do something, but don't know what to do!

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

1st day at ministry site :)

So... (don't you love it that I start most of my blog posts with "so..." :) ) our students started their ministry sties this week!! Yeehaw!! Finally the hands on stuff, the getting messy for the Gospel stuff!! Love it!!

Staff goes with the different groups of students at least two days a week to the different ministry sites. So, this week I went with a group of students to a place called By the Hand - Kids Club. It is an area youth program run out of a local church. It is a year-long program with more intense programming in the summer to keep the kids busy. It was sooo much fun!! We played games with the kids, helped them with their reading, did a devotional/shared the Gospel, and played some more!! The kids in this program go from K-8. What a blessing to be their and be able to interact with such beautiful children of God!!

Here's some pics! :)

This is me and Iris! Isn't she beautiful!?!?


There she is again! I love her smile! She is 8 years old!! :)


This is Kenneth working on his reading with one of our students, Emily. He was not too thrilled to work on reading in the summer!


During our free time, the girls love to braid hair!! So, Iris was working on my hair! You need to have a tough scalp, that's for sure! They're not messin' around! Don't I look beautiful though??

This is me and Kayla!! Isn't she adorable!!?? Such a little lover!! :) Got my fill of lovins from her!!

Here's some of our little guys! They're trying to look tough - but don't let them fool you, there sweet as ever! ;)

Couple of the kids working on one of our student's hair, Ashley!! Yes, even boys can do hair! :)


They loved taking our cameras and taking pictures of each other and being able to see them on the screens right away!! Sooo cute!! That is Daniel holding the camera! He's a tiny little thing! I wish you could have seen his smile!! :)


One of the older kids showing us her mad skills with the carrots!! :)


This was one of the amazing pieces of art hanging in the hallway of this youth center! I love this!! I think it is so beautiful the cross against the rainbow!! What a great reminder of God's incredible love through the promises He gives us!!
So... yeah! I can't wait to go back to the sites this week! I feel sooo alive being in this community, getting to know God's people, and having the gift and freedom to tell others about how much God loves them!! Wow!!
Love ya'll!! :)









Saturday, June 20, 2009

Team Building Day

So.... today was our team building day! We put the students into ministry groups yesterday and today we really wanted them to begin working as a team. The ministry groups are the groups that the students will be spending the majority of their time with this summer. They will be going to all the ministry sites each week together and they will be going to church together. So, today was was really important for them to learn to work together, communicate, establish trust, encourage each other, and spiritually support each other as well. It was super challenging, but we had a blast!!! Beth (my roommate) and I took two of the groups and did the activites right along with them! I love this kind of thing!!!! :) Here are a few pics of our hard work and FUN!!!! ;)
























Tuesday, June 16, 2009

Challenged

On Saturday, we went out to explore different ethnic communities in Chicago. There are TONS of them!! This is a pic of the students I took out that day. We had the privilege of going to an area called West Ridge. We walked up and down Devon Street, which has probably 7-8 different ethnic communities represented on that one street!! Including Jewish, Pakistani, Indian, Russian, Muslim, Greek Orthodox, Lebanese, etc. It was amazing!


Our goal was to go and observe and explore each community to broaden our knowledge base and open our eyes to the ways in which each community did life. What an incredible opportunity!! Boy were our eyes opened!!


We split into smaller groups so as to not overwhelm the communities with a group of 8 people who obviously don't live in the community. :) My group after about 10 minutes found a man on a bench and we decided to talk to him to hear his story. He was probably in his 70s, a refugee from Iraq. He has been living in the states for 8 months. He lives with his wife and two daughters. He cannot find a job. His daughters are going to school to learn English so that they can get a job. He lives in a TINY apartment (he showed us) with his family. And they pay $750 in rent with no jobs! They had to leave Iraq because things were so bad over there. We asked him if he missed Iraq. You could see the sadness in his eyes! It broke my heart! But hearing him talk about his life, his homeland, his family, being in America - was amazing!! He wanted/needed to be heard!! And what an incredible blessing it was that God chose us to hear his story!!


We had lunch as a group that day at an Indian restaurant! First time most of us had tried authentic Indian food!! It was incredible!!


While we were eating lunch, out the windows, we saw all of kinds of Muslim men walking to some sort of gathering. So when we were done eating, we went outside and asked what was going on. One of the men told us that they were having an annual Muslim gathering that day. How crazy we were on that street exploring on the day of the Muslim gathering! God is so funny!! So, a couple of our students started talking with a Muslim man - they wanted to hear his story (this was part of our assignment for the exploration). This individual actually was not originally from America and he actually directed us to go across the street and talk to another Muslim man who was from America and who chose to become a Muslim rather than grew up in a culture where it was expected. We found out later that a Muslim (in this area) will talk to someone who is not Muslim if you come from similar areas or origin (born in the U.S.). That is why this man sent us across the street because the Muslim man across the street was originally from Chicago.



We headed across the street and so as to not overwhelm this man and his two friends with him, we again split into two groups. One group approached this man to talk and the other group walked around the neighborhoods on this part of the street to do some more exploring.



Allison and I (another staff) were SOOOOO proud of the students!! Both groups ended up in front of this man and the dialogue that took place between this Muslim man, his two disciples, and our students (and us - staff) was INCREDIBLE!!!!!!! This man was brilliant! He was articulate, deeply intelligent, a leader, persuasive, influential.... and the list could go on and on! And what could have scared our students away, only intrigued them and made them converse more and ask more questions!! This man was not in a place to really hear about the Gospel, he wanted to focus on what we all agreed on and would not allow discussion to go into anything we disagreed on!



But, friends, it was an AMAZING experience!! Not only for the students!! WHAT A HUGE CHALLENGE TO YOUR FAITH TO HAVE A CONVERSATION LIKE THAT!!!! The biggest thing this man could not accept about being a follower of Jesus was the concept of the Trinity. He could not accept or understand the idea that God could be three separate beings and all One at the same time. And honestly, that is a huge concept to understand! And if we're all honest with ourselves, we don't understand it! And we never will completely! We have to at some point accept it by faith! And this man could not do that. But, boy, did the students try to get him to understand! They didn't just simply accept the fact that he didn't get it - they came back with their solid thoughts, ideas, and Biblical, real-world examples to try and make him understand.



About 10-15 minutes into our conversation, other Muslim men (who had come for the gathering) had joined around our group and this man and his disciples to listen in on the conversation. By the end of the conversation, there was at least 20-25 Muslim men gathered around us listening to the interaction!! The man leading the conversation asked at one point how much more time we would like with him - we all decided on about 10 more minutes. But after about 3 minutes, this man looked around and saw the crowd that had formed and said we needed to go our separate ways. He said that if the police came by, they would stop because so many people were gathered and wonder what was going on - He commented that even though nothing was happening, the police would stop and blame them (referring to the Muslims) for "whatever" was happening. Super sad reality, huh??



And the even crazier thing is that for this gathering, there were no women or children present. And obviously in our group there was a few women in on this experience. And what we found out was, this man and his disciples should not have been talking to the women in our group!! He even shook two of their hands in the beginning - however, at the end, once the crowd had formed, he would not shake any of the women's hands. You could tell his disciples, sitting on either side of him, were very uncomfortable that he had shaken the women's hands in the beginning and that he was being as open in talking when women were present!!



Couple things about this interaction were super challenging for me... the first was when one of this man's disciples asked a question (well, asked his leader first if he could get permission to ask us a question). He asked, "Are you a Christian just because you are an American? Or do you actually believe and that is why you are a Christian?" What he was trying to articulate (he had some trouble with English) was are we simply Christians because we call ourselves Americans and "American" and "Christian" seem to just go together? Or do we call ourselves Christians because we actually believe in something and have a lifestyle that is different and that is what makes us Christians?? In his mind, all he saw since he came to America was everyone just calling themselves "Christians" because they lived in this country. But nothing was different about the way they lived their lives.


The other thing that was both challenging and heart-breaking was the influence and leadership this man exhibited. In debriefing with our students after our experience, the one thing many of them commented on was how if this man had been a Christian, he was such an influential and powerful speaker that he could have brought many to Christ through his words and witness! And the reality was, because he is such a powerful and influential leader, he brings many young men in their 20s to Muslim because of his words and witness being a Muslim man!! That being said, why aren't we vocal, powerful, and influential in our words and witness as Christians?? Why don't we have that much passion for our beliefs and the God we serve?? Or if we do have that much passion, do others see it?? Why do we not stop people on the corner and tell them about how our lives have changed because of a man named Jesus?? Wow!!! If our passion, love, and commitment for Christ manifested in the way this man's passion and commitment to being Muslim did.... it would be incredible!!!! Kingdom-growing for sure!!


Sorry this post is so long! It was just so amazing, challenging, and overwhelming that I couldn't just sum it up in a few words! And the words I did use, still didn't do it justice! But I wanted to share!


Much love!!

Friday, June 12, 2009

Let's rewind...

I was up this morning by 5:45am - got myself ready, had some quiet time, ate some breakfast, and now I have a blessed moment to breath and update my blog. I want to share some of the things God has taught me, told me, reminded me, and encouraged me with over the past week.

Last Sunday (my first Sunday in Chicago), as a staff team, we attended an incredible church on the south side of Chicago. And God totally gave the pastor the words to speak directly to my need and to my heart. What a huge blessing after the way I was feeling last Friday and Saturday!!

The sermon was entitled, "When the end of the road is just a bend in the road." I'm just going to write some of the points the pastor shared in his message.
- God uses tragedies in our lives to accomplish His eternal purposes.
- God says, "My glory is more important than your good."
- Whenever my pleasure interferes with His purpose, He allows pain.
- Everything in us that doesn't look like Christ, He is carving off.
- To know ultimately what you don't see immediately, yet you feel it intimately until you take it in experientially.
- Until you raise your hand in obedience, He will not let you see His provision. (ex: Abraham and Isaac - Abraham did not see the ram until He put Isaac on the altar)
- The trouble you're going through is for the future you're going to.
- YET I will praise Him!!

Then on Wednesday, I was having my quiet time with God and the subject of my devotional was "Rest in Me, my child."
Psalm 62:5 - Find rest, O my soul, in God alone; my hope comes from Him.
I Thes. 5:17 - Pray continually.

And upon reading the devotional and the Scripture that accompanied it, I wrote in my journal, "God I am amazed at how personally and intimately you love and take care of me!" Oh, how I needed to hear those words! I needed my Father in Heaven to remind me to rest in HIM!! I needed to hear the words from Pastor Ford on Sunday saying God will never let a difficult time in your life go unused! I needed to be encouraged to continue to be obedient to God and that He will take care of the rest!

Oh, I almost forgot! Also, last weekend, one of our leaders, Marc, did a devotional focused around Hebrews 13:20-21 (paraphrased) - May the God of Peace -- equip you with everything good for doing His will, and may He work in us what is pleasing to Him, through Christ Jesus. What the study of this Scripture and God speaking through Marc reminded us is that all we have to do is show up! Even if we don't always have the desire, we just need to show up and God will do the rest - He will provide the desire/motivation, He will provide the "stuff", and He will do all of the work!! What a HUGE relief!

So.... I know that is a lot of scattered thoughts and ideas! :) But through all of that and an INCREDIBLE conversation with the leader who is discipling me this summer - GOD COVERED ME WITH HIS LOVE, PRESENCE, PROMISES, AND POWER!!! And I have over the last few days revisited those promises again and again, praying God keeps them at the forefront of my mind and deeply rooted in my heart!!

I am HIS daughter. HE has chosen for me to be here. HE lives passionately in me. All I have to do is lean on Him, rest in Him, stay rooted in His Word, focus on His promises and presence, and SHOW UP!! And He will do the rest!

So, that's what I am trying to do! Take this summer moment-by-moment, relying on the only unconditionally loving and all-knowing God who has 100 times better than the best planned for me! And the beautiful part is I get to take part in bringing this breath-taking God glory!!

I pray you feel His presence and love in powerful ways today!!
Much love!! :)